I open my eyes…

I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light.

I can’t remember how?

I can’t remember why!

I’m lying here tonight.

And I can’t stand the pain..

And I can’t make it go away…

How could this happen to me?

I made my mistakes…

I’ve got no where to run…

The night goes on…

As I’m fading away…

I’m sick of this life!

I just wanna scream!

How could this happen to me?

Everybody’s screaming.

I try to make a sound but no one hears me.

I’m slipping off the edge.

I’m hanging by a thread.

I wanna start this over again.

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered…

And I can’t explain what happened?

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done.

No I can’t…


Aye! Y’all,

I will be AWOL for 3 days due to a COACHELLA FESTIVAL 2019.

So please follow or add me on my Social Media. Thanx

𝙰𝚖𝚘𝚜 : 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗666

𝙸𝚗𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 : 𝚙_𝚊_𝚛_𝚎_𝚍_𝚎_𝚞_𝚡_

𝚃𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚛 : 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚎𝚞𝚡1

𝙵𝚊𝚌𝚎𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 : Paredeux D’Alessandro

I will keep doing live videos, like last year.

Lᴏsᴛ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ


How you doing sweetheart? hey-you, know these last few months we`ve been, Togetha, have been so right and I`m just so happy for what we share… I`ve been wondering how do you feel?


I wanna get lost in love with you.

And do all the things you want me to…

Caress your body, touch you softly.

Cuz boy I love you sooo…!


The love we share is something so especial.

Estar contigo is all I wanna do every night.

Ever since el primer dia, the first day…!

I knew we`d last foreva if I had it my way.

So the days go on, no hago otra cosa, but dream!

About the moments our hearts.

Will come closa.

Holding tu mano, and your face tan bonita, never met another young lady… Señorita.

And that is why I gotta say that you`re the best.

A million and one ways just to express.

Mi amor, I know that we will be togetha, so sing to me baby and sing foreva…!


I wanna be with you always.

Together forever `till our ending days.

Hold me baby don`t let go.

Making love like never before.


Making love in the night time.

Walks and romance…

I`m telling you hermosa…

My heart is in a trance.

They say that true love is so hard to find !

I thank the man up above…!

For making you mine.

Talking on the telephone sending you kisses.

A dozen of roses just to say that I am missing.

The warmth of your body right next to mine.

Eres tu la mejor like a toast of fine wine…

Out to the movies maybe sharing some ice cream.

Si estoy dormido, don`t wake me from my dream!

Todo lo que quiero, all I need is your affection.

My life was fine, but you brought perfection.

Now we sit here just holding hands.

Whispers in my ear tell me that I`ll be your man.

Today, mañana, in a paradise for two.

I feel the same way cuz I`m so in love with you.


I love the way you make me feel.

My love for you is oh so real.

Embrace my body, touch me soflty.

Love me `till the morning…


You know that love we share is just something so special…

The tenderness, I just don`t know what to say girl…

Would you sing to me?

One more time, like you did the last night.


ℝ𝕦𝕟𝕒𝕨𝕒𝕪 …

The day I wrote these words for you I cried…!

Could of died that day a happy and complete man.

Cuz in the palm of my hands.

Everything that I dreamed for and more…

And you know I’m down for yours.

Forever and life the reason why I made you my girl is because.

You see me for me the real me and love me unconditionally.

And even with the circumstances that I had you still gave me a chance.

And that’s why I live and breathe for you and the fids.

And you give me more than what this thing could ever give to me.

And now my life is satisfied and complete visions are coming true.

Yea of me and you placing rings on each others fingers saying “I do”…

You stuck with me through my thick and my thin to go back and live life over.


Nah this is my destiny it was worth the agony to get the ecstasy.

I never ever met a shorty that was quite like you.

And even though it was wrong I fell in love with you.

Now we sit here not really knowing what to do?

But I’m sure that you know I’ll give the world for you.

If I could runaway with you I wouldn’t even think twice.

I promise girl I’ll put it all on the line…

I know forever seems to be a long time.

But thats what I’m seeing when I look into your eyes.

And it don’t matter what your friends might say.

Cuz I know deep inside you feel the same way.

You could tell me what u want but I could read your mind.

So quit lying to yourself and put ya hand in mine.

I get excited everytime you come close.

And being right here with you is what I love the most.

So any time your feeling lonely inside.

We could runaway together and leave this world behind…

Waking up in the morning and your still not there…

Can’t we runaway and escape somewhere.

Missing your soft touch your lips next to mine.

Holdin up your hands as you look in my eyes.

What must of happened to the love we both felt inside…?

Emotions were strong and the feeling was right?

Now we don’t speak anymore you went your own way.

If thats what loves about then I was mislead.

Go ahead and take your time if thats what you need.

My loves for you forever my heart for you bleeds.

Things happen for a reason so I ask my self should I be strong.

And wait or move on to someone else.

I know you still love me I could feel it inside.

You always kept it real no games no lies.

If your ever feelin lonely feel the need to get away.

Call me up I’ll be there together we’ll run away girl.

We can runaway and spend some time…

I’ll always be the one right by your side…

Tell the whole world you belong to me…

You are my everything…

I wanna run away with you…


𝕀 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕤𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕚 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕞𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕠𝕟…

𝔹𝕦𝕥 𝕀 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕟𝕠𝕥.

𝕄𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕤𝕒𝕪𝕤… 𝙶𝚘 𝙰𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝙼𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝙾𝚗…


𝕄𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕤… 𝚁𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚃𝚘 𝙻𝚎𝚝 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙶𝚘…

𝕀’𝕞 𝕤𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕪 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕀 𝕔𝕒𝕟’𝕥…

April 4th, 2019 (Despairin’, Plaintive, Lachrymose Day)


Seems like your heart stops workin’.
The minute they close the curtain.

You take off your mask.
And take off your costume.
And if anyone asks you’re.
Taking a smoke break, you….
Drinking some coffee.
But everyone knows what you’re doin’.

Seems like the bus moves slower.
Just ’cause you got somewhere to go, so…
You take a few pills in Beverly Hills.
But if anyone asks you’ve.
Got a prescription, you.
Got an addiction.
Who do you think that you’re foolin’?


Er’body’s addicted to somethin’.

Er’body got a grip onto somethin’.

Even if it’s just to feel the response of appeal.

Maybe once, maybe twice.

Maybe hundreds of times.

Without it, it’s just harder to function at times.

You race to the bottom of every single bottle.

As if there was someone or somethin’ to find.

You struggle in your mind.

And you tell yourself lie after lie.

‘Til you get to the point where it’s no longer private.

The people that you work with notice the signs.

When you walk in the room it gets noticeably quiet.

So you break up the silence.

You say you’ve been at the gym.

But the way that you look, can’t blame on the diet.

So what you hidin’?


John Doe….!

I just want the John I know.

Once you put the drugs on hold.

Maybe you could come back home.

John Doe…!


I probably had too many things.

Smashed too many freaks.

Had too much to dri-….

I mean, had too much to drink.

Left the club, ended up in custody..

Random drug test, passed it luckily.

My girl broke up with me …?

I told her “Wait!

That’s just how you prevent it.

Well I ain’t no different, I loved all the money, the fame and the parties with beautiful women.

I spent so much time as a underground writer. ’cause I was afraid to succumb to the business.

And what I’d become.

But that what you’d judge you become.

The path with the greatest resistance.

That’s how the tables can turn, when they pivot and change your perspective and flip your entire position.

My whole life I’ve been dyin’ and wishin’ to live and experience everything possible.

When I told them my dreams, they just said… They ain’t logical, now I can see it, it’s optical.!


John Doe, is a name used to refer to a male whose identity is unknown.

𝙼𝚢 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎…

Ever thought about losing it…
When your money’s all gone and you lose your whip.

You might lose your grip when the landlord tell you that you due for rent.

And the grass so green on the other side.

Make a nigga wanna run straight through the fence.

Open up the fridge about 20 times…

But still can’t find no food in it.
That’s foolishness.

And sometimes I wonder, why we care so much about the way we look.
And the way we talk and the way we act and the clothes we bought.
How much that cost?
Does it even really matter?

Cause if life is an uphill battle.

But y’all tryna climb with the same ol’ ladder.

In the same boat, with the same ol’ paddle.
Why so shallow? I’m just asking?

What’s the pattern to the madness?

Everybody ain’t a number one draft pick.

Most of us ain’t Hollywood actors.

But if it’s all for one, and one for all.

Then maybe one day, we all can ball.

Do it one time for the underdogs.

Sincerely yours, from one of y’all.

I can feel your pain, I can feel your struggle.

You just wanna live, but everything’s so low.

That you could drown in a puddle.

That’s why I gotta hold us up, yeah hold us up.

For all the times no one’s ever spoke for us.

To every single time that they read this…

You can say that… That’s what Paredeux wrote for us.

When the tides get too high.

And the sea up underneath get so deep.

And you feel like you’re just another person.

Getting lost in the crowd, way up high in the nosebleeds.

Because we’ve both been there, both of us.

But we still stand tall with our shoulders up.

And even though we always against the odds.

These are the things that’ve molded us.

And if life hadn’t chosen us…

Sometimes I wonder where would’ve wound up. Cause if it was up to me, I’d make a new blueprint. Then build it from the ground up…

But if it’s all for one, and one for all

Then maybe one day, we all can ball

Do it one time for the people…

From Paredeux, to all of y’all…


I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but

both of us…

𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢, 𝔓𝔞𝔯𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔲𝔵


No Caption Need It

Underground, any city I come in town
It’s touchdown, Hail Mary, getting to the dough like Pillsbury.

All night, don’t feel worried, high up is where we will be.

Nah, You ain’t gotta feel guilty, won’t judge you, gon’ be free.

So pour what you want, go head, roll what you want. Fuck they say somebody walking ’round here like they somebody.
Don’t know what kind of day I had, with all this weight, couldn’t hold my bag.

Don’t hold me back from my habits, live the fast life for the magic.

I’m just looking ’round for the baddest. Hollywood face with an ass from Dallas.

Big-ass crib, nigga living in a palace.

We rolling out and my hands on the wheel so tight, got a callus.

Get so fabulous with everybody here, only thing that matters.

And it’s go time, I swear this feeling’s like we inches from the goal line.

Now or never, better make your mind.

Might hit her with a line like “What’s your sign?” Hit her with a glass of sparkling wine.

Hit her on the ass, she might not mind, acting like a 10, look more like a 9, but… ?

Don’t be stuck up, really, how could you not see us?

Doing it big, it’s obvious, you ain’t gotta say much, Cuz…

I know you’re sick and tired, sick and tired of all that bullshit.

Then don’t be afraid, take a shot and bite the bullet.

That’s one in the hole, can’t get enough, need one or two more.

Tell ’em catch up, they’re running to slow, out the gutter, I learned to bowl.

And finally it’s movie time to show them I play the role.

Of a champion, you see the goal, light shine bright, can’t see the road.

Now, just picture me, high up with my top down.

On Highland and Sunset, doing 85 on the top deck.

See, step by step we walking on stars.

If you’re looking for some action, you ain’t gotta go that far.

Now, just picture me Hollywood living.

Riding through the sun, riding through the sunset.

Now, stop tripping, just give me a minute.

And wait until the sun, wait until the sun goes down.

You know how it go down, you know how it go down. I’ll entertain yah, just wait until the sun goes down. You know how it go down, you know how it go down.
Might get a little crazy, just wait until the sun goes down.

P.D. Writing this, brings me back many unrealized memories. It hurts, but life goes on, so always looking forward.

Maybe some day i will see you again without you even notice me. (Soon)

𝕃𝕠𝕧𝕖, ℙ𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕕𝕖𝕦𝕩

You’re Unforgettable

This feeling is unexplainable, strong emotions still burning inside, in my heart; so many times i tried to forget you, but it’s not possible.

You’re always that special someone to me,

even though i try to look for a new love, but my heart don’t let me do.

as i knew no one else like you.

Just a look at your picture, it gives me hope again, that someday my wish to see you will not be in vain.

Since you were gone.

i’m always feeling so lonesome.

I wish you don’t say goodbye but you have done.

Sometimes i am lost in deepest feeling, and just thinking of you all the time.

Still believing that my love is in the ceiling.

I hope you’ll come back someday.

Although your love before it wasn’t true, important that you have a little bit feeling to me.

I’m still feeling bad.

I wish we didn’t have those strife.

but we both us a little bit mad.

That’s the reason why our relation don’t exist anymore, even you and i we’re suit together

and wish to enjoy our life for more.

You bid goodbye to me but I don’t take it so seriously, your words to me as I can’t say goodbye to you because I still love you and i can’t forget you easily.

L⃟o⃟v⃟e⃟, P⃟a⃟r⃟e⃟d⃟e⃟u⃟x⃟